Today has been so long. I’m going to take a long, hot bath and listen to some music.
It’s 11:11 and my only wish is to be happy.
Hello no one.
My mind has been so cluttered with school, I’m a nervous wreck. I’ve just been so busy (I procrastinate)
Starting tomorrow and going through the week, I have a thing called the Physical Fitness Test. I have to do chin ups, sit-ups, and a mile run, etc. I don’t know why I’m so worried about it, I guess it’s just me over thinking; as always.
I’ve been drawing a lot lately. I’ve progressed, or at least I think I have. The only thing I’m really good at are giraffes. I don’t know.
I’m sitting in my bed drinking orange juice and watching Friends. Today has been just awful. I can’t go a day without getting into a fight with someone. I wish I could snap my fingers and have this wonderful, close connection with my parents but I just feel like that isn’t going to ever happen. We get into arguments over the dumbest things, I swear. But at the end of the day, everything is back to normal. But I guess that’s better than going to sleep mad. I guess I should go to sleep now. (Continue blogging) goodnight.
I just got back home from going to first Fridays with Carly. Today has been good. School was actually good. I got 2nd chair and I’m psyched about that. I just felt bad because Emily cried, but I needed something actually good to happen to me in my life without anyone else messing it up. (As bad as that sounds)
When we went to first Fridays we walked around and got coffee and it was nice. Most of the time was spend laying on each other on a bench in the park.
I’m at peace with myself and I’m okay with that. It feels good.
I don’t know why I write on here. I guess it’s just knowing that its just for me, I don’t know.
I know it won’t really make things better but I’m hoping it will help a little. I wrote my parents a letter telling them how thankful I am of them and just that its a phase I’m in and I love them. I just hate how they treat me. I guess it is fair, it just doesn’t seem like it now. When I grow up I’ll look back on this and laugh.
Sometimes I feel like I’m the worse son in the universe. I literally have everything I could ask for but sometimes my parents just treat me like I’m a bad person or something. I have so many restrictions and I can’t do so many things its unreal.
Take twitter for example. Over 2 years ago, I got into trouble because I cussed and stuff on there, and I’m not allowed to have one still today. But I’m way way more mature now and I feel like they want a saint as a son or something. They are always bugging me about “coming out of my room” and being antisocial and they tell me to go places but when I ask they say no 99.9% of the time. I don’t know.
I have had a really sucky day.
I haven’t been feeling good, but I did make a 100 on my algebra test I got back today. That made me happy. School was good, kind of. There’s this boy, though, who always calls me names and it’s getting kind of old. I’m starting to not talk to my “friends” again, I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.
I’m going to take a bath now.
I’m sorry I haven’t written in 3 days. The reasons being why are a mix between being busy and lazy. Things are pretty much the same, really. School was just another day. My mind hasn’t been focused lately. My grades have dropped and I’ve been finding myself just not paying attention. I know I will be able to fix those things though.
Is it possible to fall into deeper love with someone? Yeah it is.
I’m so excited for Christmas; I love winter. Everyone complains about the cold weather but its my favorite time of the year.
I’m just typing things that come to mind. I’m going to sleep now. Goodnight.